You know the cartoon characters- Little Miss Sunshine, Little Miss Giggles, Little Miss Chatterbox....
Well, you can call me Little Miss (Hormonal) Pissy Pants. And not in the pee way, in the B way. haha
For real peeps, I am up and down the past few days. Lucky for most around me they are not the focus of my anger or frustrations. Sadly, for my husband, he is. I also don't feel like being around certain people. This is making me a pretty crappy friend. I honestly don't mean to, it just happens. I think it is extra challenging for me right now too because I can't go try a new workout (hell, it's challenging to walk a block), it's terribly cold outside (yes I am spoiled rotten and dramatic about the weather, but it has been really cold here), practicing yoga no longer feels good- everything hurts and lets face it; shots are really frowned upon any time during pregnancy. ;)
I could go on and on about how much of a cranky pants I am right now and how awful I feel, but what I realize is there is only a short period of time left before the Ninja is here. I have to remember there is only a short period of time left where I can just hop in my car and go to Target or out to dinner or where ever I want without having to gather anything but myself.
I got an email from a friend (and Mom) the other night that I have a lot of respect for. One thing she said that really made me sit back and think was, "Enjoy the last few days (as miserable as they may be) because a year later you'll look back with fondness and longing as your baby turns one and starts his second year of many establishing his independence". Her email couldn't have come at a better time.
So, for now I will still be counting the days. I know it is still ok to feel like crap and talk about it. However, I will try to not be such a B and focus more on how very blessed I truly am!
PS- Denver peeps! On a very bright note I finally found a fantastic massage therapist! I would highly recommend her for not just those of you who are pregnant but everyone! Amazeballs! Her name is Christine and she is at Elixir - check it out!
Alright, so perhaps the title to this entry is a tad dramatic, but there are those that act that way when they hear formula feeding or c section....
Since finding I am having a planned c section I have been doing a ton of research on that and formula feeding versus breast feeding. I want to be educated on things I know nothing about besides only what I have heard from other friends. I want to know both sides, the good, the bad the ugly.
First, lets discuss the c section. Personally, I am totally fine with it and not that scared (being awake during the procedure is what kinda messes with me). While I do agree it is major surgery, getting the Ninja here as safe as possible is first priority. Maybe I am also more laid back about it because I had so many surgeries and procedures done in order to get pregnant? I also do not feel like I am anything LESS for not having him "naturally" or lets just say it- vaginally (note, there is a huge difference between natural birth and birth with meds vaginally).
I have tons of respect for all types of birth plans. I have friends who have done some things that really freak me out, but I still respect the decision they made for their birth. I have to say I find it appalling the way some women treat one another once they hear that "naughty" word C SECTION. And don't you dare even mention thinking about an elective c section. OMG- no you didn't!
Much of the research I have done always leads to some board of women interacting, which quite frankly is great (and this is by no means bashing them, I have gotten to know a couple and learned a ton)... but we SAY we are supportive and then BAM that dirty little word comes out and ladies start flipping. I just don't get it. I feel lucky I have only had one person flip on me. Lets just get real on this one, long of the short and either way you slice it, getting a baby out of your belly is not glamorous or fun. I am also pretty sure when your doctor says you may need or do need a c section they are not trying to play Edward Scissorhands with your body or take the "easy" way out. Clearly, they have identified a medical reason as to why. I know there are some crazy docs out there, but I still think they know a hell of a lot more than we do.
Secondly, formula feeding. This is another naughty word (formula) that makes some people flip out. It's the whole formula versus "breast is best" thing. Trust me, my research has gone deep into this one as to what I will choose to do. I think I have my mind made up, but I can't be sure quite yet. Game time decision. Or wait, my body could make the decision to NOT make any. In my research I stumbled across an article that really got my attention. Thought I would pass it along here as it does have so many great points, not to mention the author is quite funny (and I know she isn't a doctor). ;)
I guess all I am trying to say here is I see a ton of women who say they are supportive to one another, but 2 major triggers for the flip are the above subjects. I don't see where that gets any of us. I can tell you where it gets me (besides confused)--- Feeling people out before I even mention I am having a c section or am possibly considering not breast feeding. Or honestly, just going with it and not saying anything at all. Why should we be made to feel this way on the above topics? Why should we be judged for a decision either we made, our doctor made or our body makes?
I am not trying to ruffle any feathers with this post, I am just sayin'.... "Things that make you go hmmmm"....
Sometimes I look into the mirror and I have to look again. I don't look like 'me' anymore. My face is joining ranks with the rest of my body and swelling. I have never had Botox injections before, but I would think the aftermath of the procedure would feel the way my face feels right now (especially when I talk)- puffy, yet firm & gross. It's weird. Ok, I had to get that off my chest. All better now.
My weekly appointment went well today. I am up one pound (145). This one pound I am not counting as I had my big Uggs on, a half full skinny Vanilla Latte in my hand, North Face Jacket on & scarf on. Surely those things added my one silly pound (or maybe it was all that food I have been shoving into my mouth..... hmmmm). Blood pressure is still great. Belly measurements were right back on track, no scares today in this department. Dr. D'A said it was probably how he was positioned last week and now he is probably just stretching out more utilizing the small amount of space he has left. His heart beat was around 130. All good.
I have been noticing over the past 2 days his movement hasn't been very kung fooish. It is more labored and slow. I am still getting to my 10 to 12 movements, but it is taking much longer. Dr. D'A decided to go ahead and do a Non Stress Test just to be sure. Have I mentioned how much I love her? It feels so great to be in such good hands. So, off to the NST room. She hooked me up to a machine with sensors attached to my belly for 20 minutes to monitor Ninjas heart, movement & possible contractions. The results were just fine. Nice spikes to 145 (when he moved) and hover of 120-130 when he was just fluttering around.
Oh sure, I authorize you to give me CPR
or a blood transfusion in case of emergency......
We also went over all the nitty gritty details of my c section along with signing a bunch of paperwork. All systems go there. The only news that had me kind of down today was Dr. D'A is taking off Monday- Friday next week. If Ninja decides to come sooner than eviction day, I will be in the hands of another doctor. Now, don't get me wrong. I know the whole practice is highly qualified and will take excellent care of me.... however, it just wouldn't feel the same to have someone besides Dr. D'A slicing into me. You know- comfort level of her knowing every last detail about you and your body.
So, I will say even though I am holding up the pregnancy white flag - little Ninja, try not to come when the good doc is out of town ;)
Merry post Christmas! Hopefully everyone had a lovely holiday. We sure did! Spent some much needed time with friends (ate a ton), laid low at home, taught a yoga donations class with 2 other incredible instructors (Joe practiced) & ordered food from Whole Foods (no cooking for me this holiday)!
Clearly, there were no Christmas "surprises" for us. The Ninja is still cooking away in my belly. ;)
As the eviction date draws closer (14 days) the rare occasions that I do sleep my dreams are of waking up and not being pregnant. Yes, I am ready.
Tomorrow is my weekly appointment with Dr. D'A for the basics and to go over more details of the c section.
I would write more, but my hand currently feels like it is on fire while being smashed with a hammer.
I will leave you with this pic since I have been asked to post more. Thank you Jeff.
This morning I had my weekly appointment with Dr. D'A. The office was out of the ordinary super packed with patients. As a result of this she was running behind. No bigs, I don't like waiting at all, but waiting for her is worth it to me.
Once I was called back by my nurse things went as they normally do. Weight check (I have gained 2 more pounds, way to go chubs, right?). Blood pressure check (all good there). Any changes check (nope, still feel like shit).
Then followed prep for the StrepB test and measuring by Dr. D'A. The StrepB test was only slightly uncomfortable (I will spare you the details) then on to measuring my belly. As of last week I was measuring right on which is great. This week however, I was measuring much smaller so Dr. D'A said I needed to get an ultrasound right away to check my amniotic fluid.
At first it was scary to hear her say that. I wasn't supposed to have any more ultrasounds unless she thought there was an issue. Now, is this an issue? Could be. All I knew right then and there was one of two things: 1. Either he had dropped so much it made extra room in my belly resulting in smaller measurements or 2. There was an issue with my amniotic fluid which meant there could be a possibility of him coming today. Of course she was great at making me feel more at ease, we moved on to hear the heartbeat (140- excellent) and talked about his positioning in my belly. Head is down and body is curved to a cute little C.
Because the office was off the chain busy I had to wait for the ultrasound to be available for Dr. D'A to use. So more waiting. She warned me it could take awhile. Lucky me! I had time to panic and be excited all at once! Yee haw. Actually, it wasn't that bad by my head was spinning. Most importantly I just wanted Ninja to be ok.
Finally (after what felt like a lifetime) the ultrasound was ready for me. I gotta tell ya, our dude is running out room in there for sure! However, he was as active as always showing off his Ninja skills to the doc. Much to her surprise (you should have seen her face) my amniotic fluid was quite FULL. At this point in the game (I am 36.5 weeks- yes every half/day/min counts now) they look for fluid levels over 5. Yep. Full! Nothing like that Jiffy Lube and Oil check to let ya know! haha
She said she wasn't sure where I am storing all the fluid but she was so happy it wasn't low as she had originally suspected. So, no Ninja today my friends!
She went on to take quite a few measurements and data. He was placed in my belly just as she had said he was as well. I couldn't make too much out- but I got to see his cute little profile and all that crazy Kung Foo Fighting. Measurements all looked good and she is speculating he is weighing in around 5 pounds.
So, little Ninja- no more scares, either cook or get your cute butt here!!
And because we all deserve a chubs, man hands laugh- here you go. Make it a very HAPPY FRIDAY friends!!
brain is a condition that affects expectant mothers, usually during the first and third trimesters. Sometimes known as placenta brain or baby brain drain, the condition is usually characterized by short-term memory loss or forgetfulness. Some medical experts say that pregnancy brain is a myth, but evidence shows that many women have experienced this condition.
It's understandable that women's emotional levels vary greatly during pregnancy. Hormonal surges, combined with the fact that pregnant women must eat for two and may be getting less sleep, are contributory. A great deal of the mother's time is taken up with thoughts of the baby, so a little forgetfulness is expected.
Increased levels of the hormone progesterone are thought to be a culprit in pregnancy brain. Progesterone can often cause headaches, mood swings and fatigue. The increase of progesterone is often greatest in the first trimester and may be the reason for increased forgetfulness throughout pregnancy.
Yep, it is happening. I always said "what a bunch of caca" when it came to the concept of "pregnancy brain". The only thing I really ever thought about it was - ok, fine blame your lack of sleep on something, blah blah blah. Welp. Time for me to eat some serious crow. This shit is real folks.
I have been "suffering" (yes, I now consider it a "condition") from this said pregnancy brain for about a month now. It continues to get worse. You should see me in the morning all over the house, up the stairs, down the stairs, getting my work bag ready- hell getting ready. It is quite the sight and incredibly frustrating. Though frustrating I do find space to laugh at myself and pull it together!
Now, lets discuss pregnancy sympathy symptoms.... another thing I thought for sure was another crock of shit.... I stand corrected. Here is what I found (look, it even has a special name)!
Couvade syndrome
also called sympathetic pregnancy, is a condition in which a partner experiences some of the same symptoms and behavior of an expectant mother. These most often include minor weight gain, altered hormone levels, morning nausea, and disturbed sleep patterns. In more extreme cases they can include labor pains, postpartum depression, and nosebleeds.[1] The labor pain symptom is commonly known as sympathy pain.
Couvade syndrome is not a recognized medical condition.[2] Its source is a matter of debate. Some believe it to be a psychosomatic condition, while others believe it may have biological causes relating to hormone changes.
Upon further research I also found this "condition" is not exclusive to your partner. It also affects your very close friends and coworkers. Uh oh, guess what?? It has made its move on a couple of my friends from zits to brain. This was made official a couple days ago while looking for a fire extinguisher. I will leave it at that. Sorry ladies, I love you and the Ninja will be here soon and all these zits, mood swings, migraines and forgetfulness will be totally gone.
Long of the short. It is bad, it is real and I am ready for it go away.
Some studies show if you play Mozart for your unborn child they will be more calm and perhaps smarter. Clearly, nothing has been proven on this matter, but why not try it on??
The Ninja gets Mozart music time for 10 minutes in the morning and at night (most days, but not always everyday). The Nurse Practitioner at Dr. D'A's office recommended it around week 28. Joe found some great stuff and put together a play list just for him.
What I can tell you is he loves to dance to it. And it is truly more of a dance than his normal Kung Foo fighting. Trust me, there is a difference. So here we are jammin to some serious Mozart!
Not much new news to report besides some pretty intense contractions (not Braxton Hicks). They come and go whenever they want. They are completely random, however, they hurt like hell. I still don't have a hospital bag packed, but I have the Ninja's stuff ready - well, as ready as we will ever be. :)
Since I don't do a whole lot of sleeping, I do a lot of reading and researching instead. I stumble across some pretty fun, funny, sad, amazing and puzzling things- as I am sure you can imagine.
I have been sitting on this one for a couple weeks now still puzzled.
What were they thinking? Didn't they have someone who told them this was an awful idea? Didn't they have someone who loved them enough to say this is not only creepy but just wrong? Can you imagine this hanging in your hallway, living room or Lord forbid the babies room? Is that a drawing on her belly or a tattoo? I really hope it is only a drawing.
And no, this isn't Joe and I. Happy Monday everyone.
Remember that from Tommy Boy? If not, shame on you and watch it now!!!
That's about how I feel. Not to mention all the other ailments that are now joining forces with the ones that have been with me since the early stages of pregnancy. The Ninja is really starting to get comfy in there and doesn't mind kicking the shit out of me. He has found his way to my ribs (right side). They feel incredibly bruised right now. I am also convinced he is sitting on some nerves as I am now getting sharp pains when he kung foo fights down the front and back side of my body- they are like lightening. The kicks are becoming much more Ninja like. Strong. Precise.
Hey, that is what I get for making him a Ninja, huh?
My appointment with Dr. D'A went great. We are back to measuring right on track and his heartbeat is beginning to slow a tad (this week 130- which is perfectly normal). He is starting to get cramped in there for sure. I think he was also just showing off for Dr. D'A - his way of trying to say, "I have no idea what this mother of mine is talking about, I am sweet and cuddly all the time"! My weight (now 142! yes, that is 42 pounds that I have gained so far), proteins, sugars & blood pressure are all perfect. I am starting to visibly swell through my legs (I call them Ganesha legs) and still on my lame right hand which continues to get worse as well. Needless to say, I am welcome to him arriving anytime at this point. ;)
Many of you have asked for belly pictures. Funny thing is I will have LOTS of pictures after the pregnancy that are going to be so cool. I have been meeting with Jeff once a week since week 14 taking pictures of the progression of my pregnancy. Though I think he picked a bad candidate for it (I just recently really started to blow out) they are going to be super sweet. I can't wait to see the finished product and share with everyone.
For now I will leave you with these 2. One before (all I had was one back when we were prepping for IVF) and one NOW- well, actually one from about a week ago. If you can believe it, the belluh is bigger already this week. Come on Ninja! This momma is ready to meet her little miracle!!
Ahhh, yes! The long awaited nursery pictures. It was difficult to capture the whole room, but you get the point. I didn't take any shots of his bathroom, but it is gray and white. I am so pleased how everything turned out. I am so thankful for such great friends and family who were a part of this room coming together! Hopefully many smiles, laughs, sweet dreams and very little temper tantrums will take place here! haha
Please take note the to coolest thing in this room: the RED gummy bear night light on his book shelf. Seriously peeps. Every kid (and even adult) should have one.
I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving Holiday! I did not intend not to write anything over the past few days, but that is what happens when you have a lame hand (yes, you guessed right- it is no better)!
We had a very good and laid back Thanksgiving. It was a beautiful day, the weather was perfect outside. We started with a kick booty yoga class and then on to making food for the rest of the day. I am only bummed I didn't take any pictures. We had turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes & gravy, sweet potatoes and rolls. Yum. I am sure you are not surprised, we stuffed our faces! Especially me, gotta feed that Ninja, right?
It is hard to believe that a year ago Thanksgiving Joe and I were in Steamboat Springs enjoying snowboarding, hot tubing, drinking and cooking. At the same time Molly and I were prepping to release our Still Not Pregnant blog. What a difference a year makes. There have been set backs. There have been leaps forward. And lots of things in between. I look back on our long journey and my writings in STILL and know how incredibly blessed we are right now. Never in a million years did I think we would be staying in the city for this holiday and not heading to the mountains because we are so close to having the Ninja. Yes, call me crazy if you would like, but we didn't want to take any chances if he wanted to make an early appearance. Being close to my doctor is top priority for this little one and me!
Last Tuesday was a check up with Dr. D'A's office. I met a new doc (Dr. Jacobson) who was quite nice. I have to give Rocky Mountain OB-GYN big props for having some of the best girly doctors that I have worked with to date. Everything was fine. Ninja's heartbeat was right where it needs to be this far in the game (149), he was moving and shaking his kung foo fighter all around for the doctor. The good doc said he was quite content in my belly- to which I laughed - and said "don't get too comfortable kid"! My belly measurements are right on as well, looks like he is still measuring a little ahead of date, but we can't be sure without an ultrasound. If you can believe it I only gained two pounds since my last check. I thought for sure with the mass consumption of food as of late that number would have been much higher. I go back again this Tuesday to see Dr. D'A and this will mark weekly appointments for me and the Ninja.
In the meantime we are still working on the nursery- sorry no pics yet. One more piece of furniture and I promise to post! I am working on getting together a hospital bag or at least a solid list just in case Joe might have to throw one together for me. We have another class scheduled for next week - Baby Safety. We also need to get around to watching our Happiest Baby On The Block DVD!
I continue to be amazed how quickly, yet slowly the time is passing. Nothing new to report with my body besides the same. I am quite miserable. However, here is something I thought about a couple weeks ago. The only thing not hurting me right now is my low back and hips! These two areas are typically what all pregnant women complain about. Not this one though- just everything else!! You should see me try to get out of bed, now this is funny rolly poley stuff!
Here are some updates:
How far along? 33 weeks and 4 days. Holy s*** - this means about only 45 days to go!?!
Baby's Size: Durian Fruit (see pic). He is approximately 17-19 inches long and weighs 4-6 pounds.
Total Weight Gain: 37 pounds
Maternity Clothes: I purchased my first maternity shirt from Target on Wednesday. I don't like it or need it really, I just wanted to try one. I also tried on a pair of COH maternity jeans just to see, I also did not like them or the price tag - $225? No thanks. I can still wear my size up pricey jeans just fine that have a waist and button.
Sleep: No improvement there, only about 3 hours on and off throughout the night.
Best moment this past week: Having some much needed time off with my husband.
Miss anything? Being able to easily bend over. My belluh is really getting in the way these days.
Craving anything? My hand to not hurt. Is that considered a craving? I will go with yes. PS- I am still eating all the time so no specific food cravings, just all.
Belly button in or out? Almost an outtie!
Happy or Moody most of the time? Mood swings have been pretty crappy this last week. My husband has been the target of most of them. Poor guy.
Thought I would drop some updates since it has been a few days.
The Ninja has been very busy remodeling and practicing his combos in my belly. I think someone snuck him some nunchucks at the shower or in the middle of the night. I am not going to lie though, I like it even when it is incredibly painful. Puts my mind at ease everything is going just fine in there. Oh and bonus for me, he still hasn't found my ribs!
I am also convinced he is going through a growth spurt. I am eating just about everything in sight now. OK, not everything, I still have my don't likes. But I eat a lot. Surely it is driven by him growing? Here is an example if you don't believe me. Friday night Joe and I went to eat at Asian Cajun (crab joint across the tracks in Denver, it's delish if you have not tried it out yet). I ate a dinner salad, all my crab and some of Joe's. When he was paying I noticed there was a hole in the wall Taco joint across the street that looked really good, it is called Tacos Rapidos. I mean with a name like that and a 24 hour drive through, how can you NOT try it out? That we did. 2 deep fried beef tacos with all the stuff on them. This could have gone terribly wrong or deliciously well. I am happy to report it went well and I ate my face off AGAIN! I mean really. Who does this?? All I know is it is going to get real interesting at my doctor appointment this Tuesday when I weigh in! ha!
It will be a week tomorrow since I got the steroid shot in my hand. I am sad to say it made it way worse for 4 days. On day 5 there was a glimmer of hope as it started to feel better overall and I would say I had about 50% feeling back. Day 6 was another let down as it started to go back to the way it has been feeling the whole time. Needless to say, I will not be back to get another shot. I have come to terms with just having to ride this one out.
This one is for those of you that either need to invest in some oils or may be in the future- so here you go! I will be using them all regardless of my feedback below. Natural Stretch Oil- Earth Mama/Angel Baby- By far the best. Thicker, absorbs into the skin quicker. Smells great! Burt's Bee's- Mama Bee Oil- 2nd place. More like slippery oil, so putting it on right after a shower and waiting a bit is most effective. It does smell a lot like lemon scented Pledge. The smell is strong but it does not go on that strong. I have grown to like it. Mother's Special Blend- 3rd place and only because it smells funky. Now, it does not smell as awful as that nasty Palmer's crap, but it is pretty bad. I would say the closest comparison I can come up with is a moving box. Otherwise is have more of an oil consistency and goes on smooth. It is much better if mixed with a lotion.
We are SO close to having the nursery done, just waiting on a couple more pieces to be delivered. I have to say, it is looking great!
More tomorrow or Tuesday my hand is revolting.
PS- The Ninja enjoyed yet another fantastic Broncos game today. He also had his first ever Thunder Dog. Ya. I ate the whole thing. OMG.
Here a few of the pictures that were taken at my shower. I do not have pictures of everyone that was there, but I sure do appreciate all there were and of course, Team Ninja (Tarra, Jori, Annie, Linda Lou and Sasha)!
Sorry for the delay in posting, but I got the steroid shot in my hand yesterday and holy moley did it hurt- blood and all! Post shot kept me from typing anything more than a couple sentences every 30 minutes. So far I do not feel any improvement (it is actually worse) but the good doc says it can sometimes take up to a week to feel any diference. It is also possible it will not provide any relief at all. The only "cure" to this pregnancy induced carpal tunnel is having the baby! No biggie though, I rolled the dice on this shot and soon will see what the outcome is! I'll keep you posted.
Onto the fun stuff! Sunday afternoon was my baby shower thrown by none other than "Team Ninja". This team consisted of a 'pit crew' of 5 incredible ladies. Yes, 5. Yes, the Ninja has a 'pit crew'. Yes, he is so spoiled already! My biggest regret of the time is I didn't get a pic of "Team Ninja"- surely this calls for a alcohol induced celebration after Ninja is here for a pic! Yes, please!
Needless to say it was nothing short of amazing. I am so grateful for generosity they put into this super fun day. I am so grateful for those who were able to make it to the shower. I am super grateful my Mother in law and sister in law from Minnesota made a special trip out just to be here. I am truly blessed and so is Baby Ninja. I wish I could put into more words how thankful I am, but alas, I will say it was f-ing awesome and infinity thank yous!! I did miss my family and friends who weren't able to make it from Nashville, KC, HTown, NYC, Florida and Minnesota. However, I know I will be seeing you all once the Ninja gets here. Happy dance all around!
I was going to have my photographer Jeffrey Grounds Photography (he is great) come to the shower, but I ended up not doing it. Bummed on my part for not doing so, I would highly recommend it to those of you that are planning. I am waiting on a few pictures that my mother in law was kind enough to take. Once I get those from her I will post! For now, here are a few the girls snapped of the cutest flower arrangements I have ever seen. Like I said, these ladies did such a kick ass job with the shower.
A couple weeks ago I got the funniest text from one of my friends who was catching up on the blog.
It said, "Hey! Just took a glance at your blog.... couldn't read all of it, but get that shitty cream off your belly! Use oil instead (have you read the ingredients in that stuff)?? Let's talk tomorrow. ASAP. I got your covered! So important to keep the glamorous stretch marks off your body..... I don't have a single one!"
I, of course, laughed hysterically (and maybe you just have to know my friend) but it was good stuff. I am telling you, I have such a bad ass friend group. Super blessed!
She was so sweet to give me a variety pack of oils. They are totally awesome, contain no toxins and don't smell like chocolate! Hello luxurious oils, goodbye shitty chocolate lotion!
Today was my 30 week check up! Only 9 weeks to go until the Ninja makes his way into the crazy world. Our C-section is scheduled for January 10th unless the little guys decides he would like to make his grand appearance sooner. I was assured by my doctor if he does she will do everything to stop the labor- she wants him cooked!
Everything is measuring great despite my little belly (though I do feel like a whale). The nurse practitioner was listening to his heartbeat and said, "wow, he sure is happy in there". I honesty couldn't agree more. He is going Bob the Builder style in there remodeling so he has more room to practice his dope Ninja skills. He keeps trying to go for my ribs but this Momma isn't having any of that noise. Tonight while teaching class though, he got real close. I gently pressed his foot down.
Today at my appointment they gave me a flu shot. I have never had one before, but after talking to the nurse practitioner I know it is what is best for the Ninja. I can get the Whooping Cough shot now or wait until delivery. She encouraged to wait until the day of delivery for the Whooping Cough, so that is what I will do. I am only having a couple side effects from the flu shot, some mild chills & just a hazy feeling, so that is good.
Monday I go in for the steroid shot for my lame hand. Fingers crossed this will bring me at least a little relief. The pain has become so bad at night I want to cry and I am not kidding.
Here are some fun questions I found on a forum the other day (in case you are curious)!
How far along? 30.5 weeks
Baby's Size: Cucumber. He is around 15-17 inches long and weighs 2.5-4lbs. He can now grasp things with his hands (Lord help my belly and ribs), he can hear outside the womb (we will start playing him specific music in the morning and night- he already gets to hear a ton of it while I am at work).
Total Weight Gain: 35lbs. As stated above, whale-like feeling, I am only 5 ft. tall!
Maternity Clothes: No, but I don't know how much longer this will be a no.
Sleep: MAYBE 3 hours total a night. :/
Best moment this past week: My wonderful, supportive husband and hearing the Ninja's heartbeat.
Miss anything? My friends and family in other states. Oh, and WINE!
Anything making you queasy or sick? No, I am just really really tired from the lack of sleep. It is definitely catching up with me.
Craving anything? No, I just like to eat everything (besides chocolate). I eat all the time. I'm eating right now. It's redonk.
Belly button in or out? 1/2 way in, 1/2 way out- OMG
Wedding rings on or off? Off - been that way for awhile- boo.
Happy or Moody most of the time? WATCH OUT, this Momma is ready to pounce (Eye - and actions- of the Tiger)?!?!
I am telling you this kid is so loved! Today the Ninja got his first email from Auntie J. It was too cute not to blog it!
I will speak for him in saying: "Thank you Auntie J for getting this mean shot, I shall shower you with love kicks and kisses upon my arrival. You are pretty much my favorite. Love , Ninja"
From: J Sent: Monday, November 05, 2012 3:18 PM To: H Subject: Dear Ninja...
My left arm is currently lame right now. The whooping
cough shot got me right in the muscle – down dog is going to kick my tushy
tonight.
I would like you to know how tough your Mama is. She
gets poked and pinched all the time and never ever complains. I am very
impressed with her and how flippen tough she is.
So far the third trimester has proven to be incredibly challenging on my body and mind. I hurt. My fuse is very short. However, I am still really grateful, so don't get me wrong. These are just my rants and opinions of one loco pregnant lady that is all. So, when I say things it is by no means coming from a place of bad intention. Just whats bouncing around in my head.
I have decided to go through with getting the steroid shot in my hand (it has taken me about 4 days to compose this post). The numbness is crippling through my hand and fingers. It has now has found its way all the way up to my shoulder. I couldn't even do downward facing dog last week and trust me, this girl needs her yoga at least! I have tried to battle it out and now I am waving the white flag to "pregnancy induced carpal tunnel syndrome".
Hello Braxton Hicks contractions! I have mentioned these in previous posts hoping that was not what was going on, but today there is no doubt that is exactly what is happening. Ladies, any advice on these? What I have learned in my body is they are tricky little contractions. Sometimes really intense and painful other times just a tensing/hardening feeling through the belly.
I could go on and on about the other things my body is experiencing, but I will stop and leave you with this last one because quite frankly (though miserable) it is funny. Last night alone I had to get up and go pee 11 times between 11pm & 6am (and I am not being dramatic with the number 11, it was 11). WTF?! I am convinced while the Ninja is asleep he uses my bladder as a body pillow and while he is awake he uses it as a trampoline. I told one of my friends this today and her response was "next time just sleep on the toilet yo". ha ha ha ha Have I mentioned how much I love my friends? They keep me laughing, that is for sure.
I will write more later, for now I am keeping my eyes in the prize- NINJA and playing Eye of the Tiger as my daily theme song...... hahaha
The results are in- I passed, I passed!! No gestational diabetes here. They also checked my hemoglobin and that was fine too (this means I am not anemic or in need of iron supplements).
Jen, I am going to need some more skittles, gummy bears and twizzlers -stat!!! Hahaha
Hope you are all having a lovely Pre-Halloween weekend :)
Wow, it has been quite the week between work and Ninja stuff!
We attended the second session of Infancy 101, I did not like it that much. We had a new instructor and I was not impressed. The topics that were discussed were really important and there wasn't that much time spent on them, she just sped through. So I left frustrated.
Good news though, this will not keep us from signing up for more classes! It is on our list for this weekend to pick more and most importantly get our hospital and room tour (though I am pretty sure I have already been on the delivery floor after my 1st uterine septum surgery in 2009). If you aren't sure what the uterine septum surgery was and you are curious, please refer back the STILL blog. All posts are marked with my name.
The highlight of our week was getting the 3d/4d Ultrasound. Attached is the full video or our session. Warning, it is long and I do not intend for you to watch it all, but for those of you who are considering having it done, I would highly recommend. It was just so heart warming to see him kicking, dancing, sword fighting, smiling & sticking out his tongue. Joe would tell you it was most excellent to see that the Ninja is still in fact a Ninja and not a Ninjetta. haha You can already tell the Ninja looks a heck of a lot like his Daddy! I have to say he has my fire though. We are even more excited to meet him now!
The absolute worst part of my week was the nasty glucose drink and surprise shot in my booty (I will get to the shot later). This drink wasn't as bad as I thought, but it was.... It is both thick and sugary. My mind processed it as if you took one of those ring sucker things melted it down, chilled it and drank it. Fruit punch flavored. Blek.
Within about 5 minutes of taking it I got really light headed. Mind you, you cannot drink or eat anything after you ingest this demon juice. You would really think they would have come up with something much more sophisticated to test for gestational diabetes, but alas, no.
Once I got to the doctors office I felt like a balloon. Dizzy, blurry vision. It sucked. After an hour it was time for the nurse to draw 3 large viles of blood (this took me back to our fertility days). Thank God she was as amazing as Ruby from Dr. M's office. Quick and to the point. I haven't felt the same though all day. Very pukey. Hopefully our results are in tomorrow and everything looks good.
We moved on to meet with Dr. D'A's nurse and then the doc. I have officially gained 30 pounds. Holy Mother of the Lord. My blood pressure is still looking great. SURPRISE, I get a shot today. What? Yes.
I have O negative blood type. This means (in Haylee's non doctor terms mind you) I have to have a shot called the Rh Shot (RhoGAM). It keeps my antibodies from attacking the Ninja's antibodies. This shot is given in the booty and it hurt. BAD. Again, this reminded me of all the fertility shots we have been though. NONE of them were this bad. Crazy, right? So now my booty hurts and I am not sure if these pukey side effects are a combo of GSD testing and shot or one of the things.
Dr. D'A said everything was measuring right on track and we got to hear Ninja's heartbeat again (also great). We were able to touch on many different topics today. I am so grateful to have such a on top of it doctor. Here is a list of things we discussed:
-Pediatrician: Yes, we need to start interviewing now and have that lined up very soon. -Whooping Cough vaccine: Yes, Joe and I (and anyone that will be around the Ninja a lot - that means you Grandma Mary Ann) will get the whooping cough vaccine. -Teaching and practicing yoga for me: Scale back a little- listen even more to my body. Not exactly what I wanted to hear, but it makes sense. Trust me, it is better than not being able to do it at all. I might go batty.
-Maternity leave: Starts January 1st -Steroid shot: Yes, more shots- this one I am still considering. It would be for my right hand & arm since the left is not as intense (helps with the pain and numb feeling). Dr. D'A reminded me it would not hurt the baby. She reminded me it is only going to get worse from here as the body will naturally start to swell more in these final weeks. Once again she is right. But you know me, I am going to try and see how it goes for now, but still highly consider at the same time.
-Kick counts: Start today! Ninja must kick at least 12 times a day every day. If less, call the doc ASAP! Trust me, he's got this down!
Last, but certainly not least we found out today I will be having a C-section. This date will be planned & set at our next doctors visit in 2 weeks. I have moved into seeing Dr. D'A every 2 weeks now. I like it a lot, we are so close!! :)
Though I do not like getting up early (5:45am today), this morning I was reminded why I used to like teaching early morning classes.
After I quit my job trading in 2009 sleeping in used to be 5:30am (no joke, some days I was up by 3:45am and most days into work by 4:45am). So it was only natural that I started teaching early morning yoga classes. The studio is quiet & serene as you start to see the sun pop up over the mountains. Walking from the chilly lobby into the heated yoga room feels so nice (especially on a fall morning). If there are windows you start to see signs of early morning sun glisten in from them. Not to mention, the early morning practitioners are some of the best and most dedicated you will meet.
Once my job shifted into more than teaching getting up early was no longer optimal for the job. I started to go in later and later. It took quite a long time to sleep past even 6am once I started this transition, but now, 2 years later it is quite difficult for me to get up this early. I have never really been a morning person, which is so funny given the professional field I was in for 10 years.
Needless to say it was super tough when the alarm went off this morning. Even Kona didn't want to get up. I am sure it doesn't help that I do not sleep much anymore (I am averaging 3-4 hours on and off through the night right now). Once Kona and I were up we headed out for our morning walk. It was still dark and crisp outside. I promised him if he was all business we could play later today. He complied (what a good golden).
Off to the studio I went. It is nice to be reminded of the simple things. I enjoyed not only a beautiful Denver sunrise, but a great class. The instructors theme for class was "abundance". This prompted me to look up the literal meaning as I thought it was a lovely way to set the day. And for reals, the word has DANCE in it. Who doesn't like to do that?!?
Even though this pregnancy is kicking my ass, the Ninja is my abundance. He is my enjoyment and overflowing fullness. I am so excited to have him here with Joe and I when he decides to make his way into this world. Until then- I will continue to remind myself of the little things, like today.
Just a quick update here, today has been challenging & my body is revolting.
This week is a big week as I wrap up 28 weeks and enter week 29. We have the second session of Infancy 101, our 3d/4d ultrasound, Gestational Diabetes testing & meeting with Dr. D'A. Out of all of these I cant wait for the ultrasound. I can't wait to see how big our Ninja is now. He certainly feels healthy and powerful!
Here are some random changes in my day to day life with pregnancy:
Crystal Light- I was grocery shopping the other day and all the sudden remembered my friend Annie making this for me when I first found out I was pregnant. It was by far the most delicious non alcoholic beverage I had ever had. What is even funnier is I totally forgot about this drink until now. It is still delish and the on the go packs are great for work!
Tums- Though I do not like Tums at all, I have to take them every night now due to pregnancy induced heartburn. It's pretty hot stuff to be belching away in bed. haha! If you have to eat Tums though, I do highly recommend the Smoothies it is much easier to convince yourself you aren't eating flavored chalk.
Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula for Stretch Marks ("light scent"- I would hate to smell the non light scent)- This stuff smells like crap. OK, to me. It smells like chocolate and makes me want to gag (if you don't know me- I do not like chocolate), but alas I keep using it as it is said to be the "best" lotion to fight again those hot stretch marks. If you ladies out there have any other effective non chocolate smelling lotions, please send my way!
My bed- last, but not least. I love my bed, however, I no longer get sleep there. Today I spent most of the day in bed with cramps (I am now thinking maybe some Braxton Hicks contractions and not just round ligament), pains throughout my legs, feet & numbness through both arms. I am exhausted and nothing helps. My amazing husband was great and made sure I had all the essentials of my phone, ipad, food, drinks & Kona. Maybe this is just what my body needed? Tomorrow will tell.
Back track to Saturday (it's how the pregnant mind works sometimes): I walked into my office and found a surprise from Lara. Are you kidding me? Is this not the cutest beanie you have EVER seen? Thank you so much Lara! The Ninja is going to look so cute in this!
It is official. My left hand has joined ranks with my right. My right hand I cannot even begin to explain the pain 24/7 from fingers through my arm. The left isn't nearly as bad, but I fear it will be before too long. This makes it so hard to type. I tried to write on a post it note yesterday and holy cow, you should have seen my handwriting! I think a 1st grader has better penmanship!
My foot and heel have issues on and off with numbness and swelling. My body is still sore almost all day long & there has been some interesting belly cramping as of last night (round ligament perhaps?). I am happy to report the nausea has FINALLY subsided to only the morning. It is a relief amongst everything else!
I am finally starting to show. I feel like a whale, though the ladies tell me I am still very small. My belly button is freaking me out. It is like a huge canyon. I won't even talk about my aching hooters. Or my thunder thighs. haha I have gained a total of 25 pounds and my body is definitely feeling it. To be perfectly honest, right now I feel like my body is falling apart. If it isn't one thing it is another. And the lack of sleeping isn't helping at all. I do keep a smile on my face though and when I get down- eyes on the prize- Ninja.
I got hit with a ton of bricks the other day when I realized we only have about 11 more weeks before the Ninja is due to be here. And this is assuming I go full term. Holy Mother of the Lord! haha Yes, we are so ready to meet him and have him here, but we still have so much to do and get in order!!
Cover of our Infant 101 packet, kinda funny.
First things first- Joe and I went to our first baby class last night. Infant 101- a two part series. I'm not gonna lie. I was skeptical. But, it is essential because what the hell do we know about once the Ninja is here?? NOTHING. I am so happy to report it was really great. The woman who led the class had a way about her that wasn't judgemental (I am finding quite a bit of nasty judgement in some other Mom's when it comes to what you should or should not do, it's rather annoying). Yes, she had her opinions and she was quite comfortable to share them, but she did so in a way that made you think- not resist. Though there were points I didn't totally agree with some of them made me think more. There was also so much information I had not yet heard about and ways to make those situations better and what to do. I really liked her.
Oh lawdy the BUMPER for the crib. We spent some time talking about this in class and I decided to return the beautiful elephant bumper that Grandma Mary Ann generously purchased for the Ninja's crib. Now that I have learned even more about how UNSAFE and UNNECESSARY they are it will go back. I have broken up with the cuteness of it and moved to the reality of the safety for the Ninja. Yes, I think I shed a little tear upon returning it. I did exchange it for cute sheets & a blanket! There was some left over on a gift card that I will use for some more of the fun elephant things. Yes!
We are still waiting for some of our nursery furniture to be delivered, so that is why I have held off in posting any pictures. I promise the before and afters are coming soon!
Here are a couple Ninja goodies from my BeeF BooB, Traci in NashVegas & sweet Kathryn from work. Thank you ladies!
I don't know about you guys but I took a look at my make up the other day and kinda threw up in my mouth a little when I started thinking how OLD it is (Kristy, when did you get married? Yea, don't answer that, I know when it was). Ew. I figure it is something that is easy to overlook when you rarely wear it?
As luck would have it one of my good friends was also in the same boat. So, off we went to Nordstrom's to the Bobbi Brown makeup counter to get our makeup done by the professionals. I have never used Bobbi Brown products, but we picked this based off of a glowing recommendation from another friend.
We had a lot of fun and ended up really liking the products. After making the purchase of our new "big girl" make up (complete with some real foundation and concealer- these products are new to me) we wondered how we would duplicate their work. Surely we will remember & surely we will look just as great when applied by our own hands?
In a way it did make me feel like a grown up though. Then I thought, wait, I am 35. I am a grown up? Nah. Age is just a number and you are only as old as you act. Ha!
The arsenal of "big girl" makeup
Here is my take away from the experience. I slowed down and had a ton of fun with a friend. Priceless. I have also successfully used the concealer, mascara & bronzer. I will keep ya posted on the rest.
Hope everyone is having a great week and finding some time to slow down and have fun with a friend.
