Today I will fill my cup in this way.....

Thursday I took time in the morning to step away from everything and treat myself to a massage.  Not only am I way overdue for a massage, my body needs it now more than ever. 

This week my nausea, aches, swelling & overall puke feeling have been at an all time high.  The massage was wonderful and for exactly one hour I was able to just relax and let everything go.  Nothing hurt and the nausea ALMOST went away. 

Afterwards I thought of this quote "today I will fill my cup in this way" and committed to doing this exact thing more often.  We get so caught up in the hustle and bustle of our every day lives, this simple thing is so easily overlooked.  Yes, such a simple thing to do, it's just remembering to do it and following through. 

That afternoon Joe and I had an appointment with Dr. D'A for a check up.  Sadly, we were not able to see Dr. D'A as one of her patients had just gone into labor.  We were super bummed, but totally understood.  We got to meet with her Nurse Practitioner and male doctor in her office (both were really great). 

The Ninja is measuring right on track and his heart rate is strong and healthy.

We asked about everything my body continues to go through just to see if there were any remedies that we had not tried yet.  Sad to report- no such luck.  I was advised to sit back and power through.  My right hand stays numb now from fingers to elbow all day now.  I still continue to wear the brace at night so I am not woken up by the throbbing numbness, which works.  My face still looks like a 13 year old, nausea is relentless & I cannot breathe.  My left hand has started to swell throughout the day, but does not give me much trouble at night.  Oh and the sleep.  What sleep?  I am going to be so prepared for this kid if he isn't a sleeper!  If it isn't my aching ligaments, nausea, numb heel - left one only (yes you just read that right), or having to pee, it is this little Ninja having a party in my belly. 

Though the above is incredibly frustrating and I long to feel "normal" again, I am so happy and excited to meet this little Ninja.  I truly cannot wait.  His belly parties always make me smile even when they hurt.  It reminds me he is strong and healthy and that is number one!  Joe and I actually got to see the movement through my skin the other day- HOLY MOLEY! 

So for now, I find smiles as much as possible and promise myself to do more of "today I will fill my cup in this way" while I wait for sweet Ninja to arrive.  15 weeks to go peeps!  Not that this mommy is counting or anything!  haha 

I will leave you with a pic of more Ninja gear!  This reminds me, I better get working on his closet (Sarah G.- I am going to need your help)! 

Ready for football and baseball!  A Broncos gift from Daddy
and a Rockies gift from Auntie J-Dogs incredibly thoughtful Mom.

Random acts of kindness

I was reminded this week how blessed I am to have so many kind, caring, fun, funny & all around great people in my life. 

The other day one of my TT graduates came to get her certification and with her she brought a gift for the Ninja.  I was speechless.  What an incredibly kind gesture.  She said, "I saw this and it was just too cute to pass up".  And she was right, check this out!!

Later in the week I was going through a 5 foot pile of mail (yes, I am really bad about going to the mailbox - our postman probably doesn't appreciate my lack of mail retrieving) & to my surprise FUN mail! A sweet card & gift card from one of my best friend from college. 

Thank you to everyone for phone calls and text messages, (I am quite bad on the phone now days- if you can believe that!), walks in the middle of the day, and the snack gifts. Thanks to my husband for floors being mopped and walking the dogs.  And most important, thanks to everyone for taking time to make me laugh so hard sometimes I am crying, cheeks ache and belly hurts!
It is because of you the crappy nausea and body pains don't hurt as much.  You make it go away with all your love and smiles.  The Ninja and I are so lucky! 

Gifts for the Ninja!

We all know how loved the Ninja is -  now it is important to take notice and say thank you to those who will also be spoiling him rotten!  Nothing less than the best for this little miracle. 

 

Joe and I have been working on the nursery when we have time.  I will be posting more pictures later this week as things start coming together. 

 

A present from Grandma Mary Ann so we can learn how to make Ninja the Happiest Ninja on the Block.  We sure hope so!  We have yet to crack open this DVD and watch, but I have heard good things about it.  I am always open to hearing thoughts from those of you who are already parents.

 

 

 

And a couple gifts from Auntie J-Dog while she was traveling for work in Austin.  So cute!  They say you can never have enough (fun) onesies! 

Welcome!

Today marks the first blog post of my new blog.  La Vida Loca.  I found this title fitting as our life is quite crazy.  Why sugar coat? 

If you have followed me here from STILL you know what that craziness is.  If you are new, please take time to check out the STILL blog.  This blog will always be near and dear to my heart.  It marks in history the journey that my husband and I have been on for the last few years with fertility issues.

The first picture on this blog is that of the Ninja.  This is one of the pictures from his 21 week photo shoot.  We are now into week 23 and kicking (literally) along.  This little Ninja miracle has inspired so many things taking place both before he was a miracle to now. 

I will start to post more and add more pictures to get this blog up and rolling.  Heck, some days I may just post about one of my 3 dogs.  See, La Vida Loca.... 

For  now, welcome and enjoy the ride.